Friday, September 25, 2009

What would it cost to make the world a better place?

Question:
When you are stuck in a work environment with a negative person who is not ever nice to anyone in the workplace and you must work with this person to get the job done, what do you do?

In my life, I typically avoid negative people. The problem is: I have to work with a negative person on a daily basis to get my job done accurately. So, what do I do? I do not know the answer to this question. I have been avoiding this person unless I have to work with them or ask them a question. Just today I asked him a question and he immediately snapped at me because he was working on something. Ok, we were on an intercom from my office to his office from which we cannot see each other, so how am I supposed to know he is working on something he cannot get away from at that moment? If he had not snapped at me and just told me he was busy please give him a minute, I would have been happy to comply. Alas, he did not, he just snapped at me for bugging him when in fact I had a question about the exact thing he happened to be working on at the time. hmmm...

I always reply to his negativity with positivity because I believe it is contagious. I am coming to the end of my rope however of being nice and cordial with him because he pisses me off every time I speak with him!

I sit here and bitch and moan about it and say "I won't put up with it" and yet I am also sitting here thinking, "yes, I will. I will put up with it to get the job done & I am going to continue to be cordial and yes, even positive because that is who I am."

I guess I just don't understand why some people are so negative all the time. Ok, so you hate your life or current life situation or maybe even your job. 1: Is this MY fault? 2: If you don't like your current situation; CHANGE IT!

Easier said than done, I know, but this is what I struggle with on a daily basis whether it be about some big issue in my life or something small like always having a dirty house. I, along with all other people in the universe deal with many uncomfortable, not-so-perfect situations in our lives on a daily basis. Wouldn't the world be such a better place if we could all be nice to one another? I think it would. And what would it hurt?...NOTHING! And what would it cost?... NOTHING!

Maybe I am delusional, but I truely believe everyone could be nice to each other and more understanding and we could all live in a better world! Oh well, I can't change everyone, so I guess I'll just work on myself!!
Thanks for reading!

Stay tuned for more AmAzInG aDvEnTuReS!!!

LoVe!!!

Monday, September 21, 2009

My extra "senses"

When did I lose my sense of "I am bound for greatness" and how did I get it back? This is the question that has been distracting me all day.

My sense that I am bound for greatness (in one way or the other) has always been with me. Not taught to me necessarily or ingrained in me by anyone. Just there. Identical to the sense that I have always had that there is a God and He is worth worshiping and He does everything for a reason. I call these "senses" because they are to me. They are just like my sense of touch, taste, etc..they are a part of me.

These two things I have known ever sense I can remember and probably before that. But somewhere along the way, I lost the "I am bound for greatness" sense for awhile. I believe it all started right before I got pregnant. At that point, I was only living life to have fun for the moment and get drunk. Then I got pregnant and had my son, Jack. Best thing by far that has ever happened to me. After Jack's birth, I started to live my life for him. But if you think about it, part of "living your life for your child" is so you don't feel like a failure. So really, I was still only living my life for me. After Jack, I got a new job and a new close friend who is very self-absorbed. No offense, I love her to death, but she is. I started to live this way as well. Then came the wedding. Obviously, a wedding is one of the premiere self-absorbed events in a woman's life. My life became more and more about me and my wants than anyone else's.

How did I get it back?....that's a tougher question to answer. Throughout the past 5 years I have had a sense I need to help people and do great things, but I never really cared, I guess. That's all I can figure out. All of a sudden, I started to hear dozens of people say, "Live your dreams" & "Life is so short". I'm sure people didn't just start saying this more often, God must have tuned me in so I could actually hear it. I need to live my life for others. That is what I am here for. Whether it be making people happy through some sort of entertainment (acting, film-making, writing) or volunteering or working for a non-profit, this is why I'm here.

Of course I want Jack to have a very wonderful and successful life. But how much better could his life be if he is led by me to love & trust in God and help others with your talents & abilities. I believe this is the best way to raise your children. (Just my opinion).

As I've said before, I haven't even come close to working out the details, but just knowing these facts (to me they are fact) gives one a certain piece of mind. It does me anyways!

I just feel compelled to tell others. Even if you aren't exactly where you want to be in life right now, it doesn't mean you can't get there. I have often felt "stuck" in my current situation, but if you are passionate about something, never give up. If you feel compelled to do something or make a statement, do it or say it without worrying about what others may say or think.

That's all for now.
Just a few "words of wisdom" from a not-so-wise gal!!

LoVe!!!

life is too short, live your dreams

So....Go Colts! They are playing the dolphins tonight, so I think they should win! I can't watch the game though because I am too far behind in my choreography for Annie! (i.e. haven't started it yet & am starting to teach it on Saturday!)

Oh, I have been thinking way too much lately!! In the past 3 days I have heard many people say "life is too short, live your dreams" whether it was on tv, radio or in person. So, I have been thinking, "what are my dreams?" I've only come up with one conclusion, that being, I want to change the world. I know, sounds like a pretty big order! All my life I have felt I had some sort of big thing planned for me and I would change the world, and yet, here I am sitting in Fort Wayne, IN not doing what I love or like to do! Definitely not affecting the world in any big way. So, I spoke with Jess and we have devised a 'rough-draft' of a plan to do what we want to do. It involves a big move to a much larger city (not sure which one yet) and a leap off a bridge into an unknown abyss! Meaning, we would have no "careers" set up in that city and would have jobs while following our dreams. I'm still not sure even what genre my big part in the world will be.. acting, volunteering, etc...but I don't see it happening here where I am today.

Wherever and whatever I end up doing, I am bound for greatness, I do know that. But sometimes you can't wait for greatness to find you, you must seek it and find it yourself. I hope whenever it happens the world is ready for me! It's gonna be great!!

There's plenty of AmAzInG aDvEnTuReS to come!

LoVe!!

Monday, September 14, 2009

Are you ready for some football?!

As we all know (or should know by now), the glorious football season is upon us!
I am a fan of football and really enjoy watching it although I do not know all the players names on all of my teams or the coaches names or the plays. I just enjoy it when my team wins! I do know a bit because I was a cheerleader in high school, so I had to know a little bit!

Just for the record, my teams are:
Colts(Indiana born & raised)
Packers (just love them)
New England Patriots (Tom Brady)
New York Giants (for Eli, whom I have followed since his college years)
Cowboys (always wanted to be a Dallas Cowboys cheerleader!)

I know these teams don't "jive" with one another or whatever, I have been told that several times by my husband, but they are my teams! And this is the order of them also. Just in case they ever play one another.

I am trying to learn more and more each week about this beloved game and I even participated in a no rules game of flag football this weekend with the family. A game I hope turns into a weekly ritual! I think rules may need to be set in place and a parent may need to referee for the sake of our relationships though! My sister and I get pretty hardcore when competing against one another!

Have to say, WAR EAGLE! Auburn U won this weekend and good job Rodgers and the rest of the Packers! (Or thank you to Jay Cutler of the Bears!)

If I learn anything interesting/new, I'll be around all season to share with you!!

Stay tuned for more Amazing Adventures!!!

LoVe!!!

Friday, September 11, 2009

The Sun'll Come Out-Tomorrow!

Just finished my reconstruction of my departments payroll. I was going to ask for a raise today but my boss decided not to come in. It'll have to wait until Monday!

I am so totally stoked for the weekend! Not because I have big plans, but I just am so tired of work right now I could throw up. It is getting more and more stressful by the day!

Tonight, Jack & I are going for a walk and taking his dog, Chuck with us. That should be exciting! Yesterday he walked 5 whole blocks before sitting down and stating that "Walking is hard Momma." Also, last night, he put on one of Jess's shirts and asked me to button it up. He then told me he was going to work at Dada's work, Bob Evans. Then he said he was going to be a cook there. Then, he went into the dining room, faced the wall and started to ""cook". It was so damn adorable! I wish I had a video camera!

Did I mention I cannot wait until 5:00?!

I leave work early today to attend and help with the call backs for Memorial Park's 'Annie'. I'm pretty excited! I am doing the choreography for said production and I get to help cast it! It is a very nice "break" from my normal routine and I get to leave work early for it! YAY!

I can't believe September is almost half over! My goodness, where does the time go?! It's so hard to get day to day things done and still have time to enjoy life! Lucky for me, I prioritize and sometimes enjoy life before the day-to-day stuff! You have to do that just to stay energized!

Well, that's all for now folks...Stay tuned for more AmAzInG (or not-so-amazing, but still somewhat interesting) AdVeNtUrEs!!

LoVe!!